Monday, January 12, 2015

Thoughts on Motherhood

III. Back to Reality


I turn on the shower and grab my toothbrush. As I step out of my socks I get a smudge of toothpaste and start scrubbing. I pull items of clothing over the plastic now jutting out of my mouth as steam fills the bathroom. I go over the grocery list in my head as I test the water with my hand: "Eggs, Ketchup, Granola Bars, Something for lunch … "

I hear a small cry from the other room. 

I stop everything - listening. The sound of spraying water drones on.

Has she noticed I'm missing, or just being fussy for her dad? I wonder how much longer I have before she full-out screams. Should I bother washing my hair or just go for a quick wipe-down?

This is the reality of the new normal. Each task becomes an extreme multi-task. 

2 months!

When you're pregnant, you hear helpful women say things like "Just sleep when she sleeps."

But when she sleeps, it's 10:30 in the morning and you just ate breakfast and the sun is pouring in through the windows. 

Oh, there does comes a time when she conveniently is asleep and you are tired, but if you don't start a load of laundry she'll be wearing a pillowcase in the morning because she spit on up or pooped on every other item of clothing she has.

The best thing I ever did (besides marrying my husband and having our daughter) was decided to freeze a bunch of crock pot meals in the weeks leading up to her birth.

The idea of cooking a meal that doesn't involve a crock pot or microwave seems insurmountable … even 2 months on.

I get into a pattern of folding my bedding on the couch every morning and unfolding it every night. When I do lay down in the bed it feels foreign and stiff, like a hotel mattress. 

I lose the crisp edges of my life and it starts to pill and soften like an old sweater.

I fall asleep every night to the white noise machine's heart beating pattern — lub dub, lub dub, lub dub. 


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Interested in crock pot freezer meals? Here's the main website I used ... I recommend the beef burritos! 

2 comments:

BumbleBri said...

Haha! I am enjoying every moment of this. The notion that life pauses so you can sleep when your newbie sleeps has always been humorous to me. I am due in March and I have forgotten all these sweet little things about having a new little one, as my oldest daughter is now 8. I am looking forward to a refresher course, but until then, I will return here for the smiles :-)

samia hussain said...

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